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Arden had stupidly had the jitters all day Tuesday, thinking of the plan with Cal to have one last paintball dinner while here in Québec. Did it mean something? Something more than friends? Surely he wasn't trying to drop a hint or anything...right?
Which meant that she couldn't help but inwardly (and ruefully) laugh at herself when they ended up deciding to end up at the Buffet de l'Anquitaire. The food looked amazing, don't get her wrong, but the chill diner atmosphere didn't really give off 'confessions of a secret crush' vibes. She was definitely glad she'd stuck with a cute but nothing fancy outfit. This was firmly 'two friends having dinner post-paintball' territory.
Once again proving that the only one harboring a secret crush was Arden. She really needed to stomp that out. She'd been making good progress, but Parents' Weekend had derailed that. But hey, if she could kill a crush during a trip where there was only one bed, then there was probably no bringing it back, right? Of course right. She was just gonna...get on doing that, then.
"Let me guess," she teased, snagging a seat in one of the bright red booths, "you wanna get the hot dog and sausage poutine. And, hey! We'll have to try some of these pies so I can report back to Graham."
Which meant that she couldn't help but inwardly (and ruefully) laugh at herself when they ended up deciding to end up at the Buffet de l'Anquitaire. The food looked amazing, don't get her wrong, but the chill diner atmosphere didn't really give off 'confessions of a secret crush' vibes. She was definitely glad she'd stuck with a cute but nothing fancy outfit. This was firmly 'two friends having dinner post-paintball' territory.
Once again proving that the only one harboring a secret crush was Arden. She really needed to stomp that out. She'd been making good progress, but Parents' Weekend had derailed that. But hey, if she could kill a crush during a trip where there was only one bed, then there was probably no bringing it back, right? Of course right. She was just gonna...get on doing that, then.
"Let me guess," she teased, snagging a seat in one of the bright red booths, "you wanna get the hot dog and sausage poutine. And, hey! We'll have to try some of these pies so I can report back to Graham."
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Date: 2024-10-22 12:31 pm (UTC)"I was actually looking at the cipaille. Look at how many layers that thing has! Just because I like hot dogs doesn't mean I don't have taste," Cal teased. "Pie is always a good idea though, I agree."
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Date: 2024-10-22 02:56 pm (UTC)Don't worry, Cal. She was working on getting rid of this dumb crush as hard as possible. Just be patient with her a little longer, okay?
"That does look awesome," Arden said. "And the potatoes are so fancy in the picture! I'm thinking of getting the spaghetti. And now Cal, important question."
She closed her menu to look at him, so he would understand the gravity of what she was asking. "Are we sharing?"
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Date: 2024-10-22 03:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-10-22 03:12 pm (UTC)She wondered if her being a total dork contributed to Cal not having a crush on her. Ah well. C'est la vie.
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Date: 2024-10-22 05:09 pm (UTC)She laughed, face lighting up a bit, because it really was ridiculous. Who stopped somebody to harangue them about their accent?!
"Maybe I'll just go full Southern and make them deal with that on top of my lousy French," she decided, looking through their collection of beverages to figure out what she should order to drink.
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Date: 2024-10-22 05:37 pm (UTC)"Hmmm, the proud people of Finchtopia see the wisdom in Calsberg's counsel," she said with another laugh. "And, I mean, we did agree to split everything, which I believe includes milkshakes." Not that Arden's head was full of any cute notions of 50s era milkshake dates. Because that went against her vow to get over Cal as quickly as possible. "Though if we get two, that is two different flavors to share."
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Date: 2024-10-22 05:52 pm (UTC)"If we're going to share two meals, sharing two milkshakes makes just as much sense," Cal agreed. "For as much exploration as possible for our two nations." He didn't need to know the 50s to know that sharing a drink with Arden was a pleasant idea. "This is turning into an even better idea than I planned."
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Date: 2024-10-22 06:13 pm (UTC)"You're just excited you get to try double the food," she teased, reaching over to poke him in the forearm. You know. Friendly-like.
Her smile softened slightly. "Planned, huh?"
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Date: 2024-10-22 06:29 pm (UTC)It was fine if it didn't make sense, because he was getting a little rambley there.
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Date: 2024-10-22 06:43 pm (UTC)Her finger stopped poking him, slid down to his hand and squeezed. Again, friendly-like. "I'm honestly grateful that you want to hang out more one-on-one. After spending two weeks trapped up on a roof with me, you'd have every reason to want to escape me."
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Date: 2024-10-22 08:24 pm (UTC)Also, Cal, if the argument about wearing clothing to bed hadn't killed it off properly, failing to order from a menu probably wasn't going to either.
(But also, goddess, no outside clothes in the bed. Just like no shoes on the bed. How was this confusing for people?)
But soon enough her order with a chocolate milkshake was in and she was turning back to Cal, clearly trying not to laugh at the server's pained expression through that. "You were saying?" she asked, eyes dancing.
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Date: 2024-10-22 08:40 pm (UTC)"These folks are going to be so glad when we're gone," he said, snickering. "But as for escaping you, that was never on my mind. Being around you is never a situation of being trapped." Cal took Arden's hand again and gave it a squeeze. "I always like spending time with you, and I hope you feel the same?"
Cal's backpack started vibrating, and he gave it a nudge to encourage BD to stay cool.
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Date: 2024-10-22 08:52 pm (UTC)Stay cool, Finch. Stay cool. Stay chilly. Stay Arctic. Stay sub-zero. Stay zero Kelvin. Do not get distracted thinking of how many different ways you can think of to tell yourself to stay cool.
She squeezed his hand back. "I do," she said softly. "You've been one of my very favorite people to hang out with since we met. My life's better because you're in it." Shit. Wait. Was that too much? Maybe that was too much. Be cool, Finch. "I know you've got BD and I've got Kamala, but you're still one of my very best and dearest friends."
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Date: 2024-10-22 11:07 pm (UTC)"Same. I mean, BD's amazing, but I've never had a friend like you before," Cal said, looking hesitant for a second. "That's why I dropped everything to take care of you, because you mean so much to me. Do you... I mean, did I spend too much time with you lately? Did you wish you could escape me?"
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Date: 2024-10-22 11:52 pm (UTC)And then suddenly looked worried. "I mean, there were times I wanted to pitch you off the roof, but also Kams, and honestly anybody. It wasn't about you at all, it was just me being grumpy and miserable and in pain."
Her brows came together. "Oh Cal," she said softly. "Is that what this is about? Did you catch one of those times and think it was real?" She squeezed his hand again. "We're good, I swear we are. It was just because I was feeling awful, I swear. You and Kams were both perfect."
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Date: 2024-10-23 12:26 am (UTC)"I'm going to start working out more, just so I can throw you off a roof," she grumbled. And then stuck her tongue out at him. Because he deserved it.
But then her face settled slightly. "They're not my family," she said. "Grimm and Duke are kinda kin? Because my mom was a djinn? But I don't think they really knew each other. And Callista is legally my guardian, but that doesn't make her family."
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Date: 2024-10-23 12:42 am (UTC)Then, before he could stop himself, he said, "You're why I didn't go back with Cere and Greez."
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Date: 2024-10-23 01:20 am (UTC)He stopped as their waiter awkwardly came over with the milkshakes and then quickly departed, and BD-1 peeked out of the backpack to nudge him. "Keep. Going."
"I've been thinking about things I maybe shouldn't have waited to say until I nearly didn't get a chance to say them."
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Date: 2024-10-23 01:43 am (UTC)Be cool, Finch. Be chilly. It's not what it sounds like. Like how this isn't a date. This is something else. Maybe a friend thing? Like a thank you? Yeah. Probably like a thank you. Be cool.
"O-oh?" she asked, still fighting down the cough. "Like what?"
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Date: 2024-10-23 01:55 am (UTC)Or maybe she had no idea what he was going to say and he was going to take her totally by surprise and she'd hate him for even thinking about liking her as more than a friend and he'd still end up in the hallway.
He'd probably been quiet for too long because BD nudged him again. "Like how much I like you. Which is a lot." Boy, was that milkshake interesting.
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Date: 2024-10-23 02:06 am (UTC)"You mean like...because we're good friends?" Arden asked, because he couldn't be saying what it sounded like. He couldn't. "Because I like you, too. A lot."
So much. Just so very much.
"More than I should."
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Date: 2024-10-23 02:14 am (UTC)"Like, more than a friend. Which is weird, and new, and I have no idea what I'm doing. But when I thought you might not wake up... I don't want to ruin our friendship, because being friends with you is amazing. But the longer I go not telling you how I feel, the more I feel like I'm lying. Does that make sense?"
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Date: 2024-10-23 02:51 am (UTC)She was trying to settle her brain down, but even so she couldn't stop smiling.
"Are you serious? You...like me? Because, like. I've had a crush on you almost from the beginning. And I've been trying to fight it down, because I didn't think that you liked people like that. And I didn't want to ruin our friendship and make you uncomfortable or go against your Code."
A beat.
"Oh no, your Code. Did I...how are you...what do you mean? Like...how do you..."
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Date: 2024-10-23 03:04 am (UTC)"Like I said, I have no idea what I'm doing. But I know I care about you, a lot, and I can't think of anyone I'd rather figure this stuff out with than you." His own rambling aside, something finally clicked for Cal. "Wait, you've had a crush on me? The whole time?"
It was a good thing he was cute.
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Date: 2024-10-23 03:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-10-23 03:24 am (UTC)It made sense at the time!
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Date: 2024-10-23 03:43 am (UTC)"How much experience dating do you think I have?" she asked. "Goddess, Cal! I don't care about any of that! I've been half in love with you from the get-go and stressing out because there was no way to do that without hurting you and forcing you to do something that you don't want, because you don't like people like that, or...didn't like me like that...or...you don't like things like...kissing or...stuff. I mean! Not saying that that's a thing that has to happen! We're not agreeing to anything or anything! But just...I didn't think...you wanted anything like that. Or would allow it. Because of the Code...Anyway, it wasn't because I was saving it for somebody who knew 'what they were doing.'"
She rolled her eyes at him, suddenly realized she'd said the words 'half-in-love-with' and started trying to calculate the distance between the diner and the sea.
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Date: 2024-10-23 12:49 pm (UTC)"I didn't tell you about the Code to make it seem like we couldn't be more than friends. Or maybe I was trying to protect myself," he admitted. "My intention was never to push you away or stress you out. I was so busy stressing out about my own feelings that I never considered you might have worries too. I'm so sorry." He laughed softly at the idea that he didn't like people at all. "I like people and I like kissing, I think. I don't know what it's okay to feel, to be honest. I've been too afraid of myself to think about it too hard."
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Date: 2024-10-23 01:12 pm (UTC)"If it helps, I never thought you were trying to push me away or make me back off? I just thought I was being a really bad friend for continuing to have a crush on you when you'd - I thought anyway - made it clear that that kinda stuff was something you weren't interested in or allowed to do. Like if someone kept trying to get me to eat wings after I told them I didn't eat chicken, you know? I just...never wanted to pressure you or make you feel uncomfortable or even make you doubt that your Code was a good thing for you, or whatever."
She might have a lot of questions and reservations about the Order, but that was different than respecting that he'd chosen to hold to the Code.
"But, um. You said you like kissing?" She has to clear her throat there a second. No reason. "That's interesting--wait, you've been kissing people?"
Wait no! That sounded bad! "You don't have to answer that!" she said quickly. "Like, you're a free person, you can be kissing people and it's not my business...I just was surprised and curious, not like... demanding you explain yourself."
The tables near them didn't need to be wiped down, but this was way too interesting to not eavesdrop on, or so thought several of the waitstaff.
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Date: 2024-10-23 05:35 pm (UTC)"I think I like kissing. You're the only person I've kissed, and I liked that, so either I like it, or I just like kissing you." Ignore the way his stomach twisted at that attempt to be smooth. That sounded smooth in his head, at least?
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Date: 2024-10-23 06:00 pm (UTC)"Oh." Again, Arden looked down, flushing slightly. And trying not to smile. "You're also the only person I've kissed, so, umm...same. With you know. Liking it. Or liking it with you."
Wow, Arden, way to make Cal Kestis look smooth.
"So..." She peeked up at him again. "We've admitted we like each other as more than friends, but that doesn't have to mean anything. Like, you said this was new, and you're still figuring things out, and that's okay. Were you mostly just telling me because you didn't wanna feel like you were lying still, or...?"
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Date: 2024-10-23 06:30 pm (UTC)There was some distraught beeping coming from under the table, because how could Cal come so far and still fall short?
"Would you like to be more than friends with me?" Cal asked.
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Date: 2024-10-23 06:50 pm (UTC)She squeezed his hand. "But also? I'd understand if you're not sure? Or you wanted to go slow? Cause like you said you're still trying to figure things out. And I don't want you to feel pressured to do something because you think it's what I want or the expectation is there for something specific?" She bit her lip. "Can I ask possibly a bad question?"
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Date: 2024-10-23 06:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-10-23 07:05 pm (UTC)Look, she had a lot of experience of people saying they wanted her and then changing their minds and...
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Date: 2024-10-23 08:17 pm (UTC)So about walking into the sea...
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Date: 2024-10-23 08:45 pm (UTC)This was much better than walking into the sea.
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Date: 2024-10-23 09:09 pm (UTC)Cal kept going until he needed some air, his cheeks turning as red as his hair. "I... yeah, I still like that. That's really nice," he said. "No regrets here."
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Date: 2024-10-23 10:03 pm (UTC)"...Is this gonna make our rooming situation awkward?" Look, she had to ask.
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Date: 2024-10-23 10:45 pm (UTC)Though whether it was something about them or a tiny droid stealing the pillows in the night, who could say?
"Is there anything else that you think we should do different?" she asked. "I have no experience with this and you don't, so it's kinda like you said, we're gonna make it up as we go along. But other than kissing and admitting that we have feelings more than friendship, I don't really know what separates being together from just how we've always been."
A pause.
"Okay, also I get to be stupid about your arms in front of you now. That's a change."
Another change? Arden was pushing her plate and milkshake over to his side of the table. Not to share, but because she was getting up to slide into the booth next to him. This seemed like an excellent time for some non-platonic cuddling.
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Date: 2024-10-24 01:40 am (UTC)She was just going to huff a laugh, shake her head, and then lean against him anyway.
"You have very good arms," she told him, and then added, "They make me want to bite them." No she would not be explaining. "Kamala makes fun of me because I forget where I am in sentences sometimes when you're in a tanktop."
Very good arms.
"...You get stupid about how I look in dresses?"
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Date: 2024-10-24 05:43 pm (UTC)Was he going to be freezing in the fall weather when they got back to the island? Yes, but it would be worth it.
"You just always look so beautiful and fancy, and then you put on a dress and you get even fancier. Also, dresses make your butt look nice." He smirked as he took a sip of his milkshake, because getting to say these things out loud instead of just to BD was amazing.
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Date: 2024-10-24 05:53 pm (UTC)And then she was staring at him, open-mouthed, before bursting out laughing. "Oh goddess," she said. "I've been arguing with Kamala for months that I was pretty sure you were aro or ace or just not into me...and now I find out you've been checking out my ass this whole time?"
She tossed her head, curls bouncing. "My butt always looks nice. I've got a great butt. Dresses just makes it look better."
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Date: 2024-10-24 07:57 pm (UTC)That was basically her pajama sets, though hers were jersey sleep shorts and tank tops. Though surely Cal hadn't noticed her pjs and certainly not how short they were.
"Well now, at least, it's not the action that's inappropriate, just potentially our location," she teased, since he probably shouldn't be (obviously) checking out her butt in class or whatever. "But you gotta tell me when you do so I feel good about it." She gave it another moment of thought. "Does this mean you actually noticed me in bikinis?"
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